It used to take forever for me to make decisions regardless of the type. I wouldn’t say I make decisions spontaneously now, but I can definitely say it takes less time than it used to.
What I learned from my depression
Through my period of depression and burnout, I learned that there are no bad or good decisions. What matters is how you perceive and handle them, and through this, you can write your own future.
I mean, I’m not saying I had never heard of those ideas, but now I kind of have embedded them in my mind deeply. I’m trying to embrace it and apply it in my real life.
Couldn’t even choose whether to have snacks or not
I used to be a person who overthinks, constantly second-guesses my decisions, weighs pros and cons endlessly, and eventually gets stuck in a box I created for myself, and can’t get out of that box for a while.
For instance, if I wanted to go to a cafe by myself, I would think of countless reasons both for and against it. In the end, I couldn’t decide and just ended up criticizing myself for being indecisive, and start beating myself up over it.
Even whenever I craved snacks, I just kept overthinking and prevented myself from deciding right away. After a while, I realize it may have been easier, and I could have decided more easily.
Now that I know I can make my decision right afterwards, it doesn’t take as much time as before.
I believe that I will choose whatever I believe is better for me in the moment. And even if I choose the wrong option, I know I will be able to turn things around later. I know I won’t blame myself anymore.
Believing let me embrace.. well..
To believe in myself is so powerful that I can now believe I can embrace every… Hmm. I’m not going to lie. I can embrace things a bit better than I used to.
